Some Parting Words For that Special Someone...
Leaving this place is like leaving you…
Leaving you and carried on walking with just memories to keep.
This blog consists so much of the bad times we had.
All my poems previously, though I often deny, mostly were about you.
And how without you by my side previously made me so depressed that I sometimes I pictured death.
I sink into a major depression because you decided you had enough of me.
And you were never there throughout it.
I fought it alone, got out of it alone.
Now I feel that it is coming back, trying to please you had put too much stress on me.
I can’t take it anymore.
All the hurling of helmet out of the window, smashing my keys against the wall, punching and hitting is not my usual self.
I know I am losing control.
I need to leave before what happened previously happened again.
I left not because I hated you.
But because I don’t want to become someone I will hate.
I hate that you have such a huge influence for all these years.
Almost 8 years.
Maybe all these years I have never really given up on you.
But now I am trying. And I should say I tried.
And is succeeding.
You might be out of my life but not my mind.
I closed this blog because I don’t want you to interfere anymore.
I changed my number cos I don’t want to hear from you anymore.
But these are all lies. I was hoping you might call. But you never did.
So 8 years of struggling had come to an end.
Thank you for being such a great friend at times.
Don't hate me... | 
